my heart's talking

I just ... miss you. really miss you. I miss your voice the way you laugh the way you told that you love me. when you're breathing slowly, showing how tired you are. I miss everything about us. when you're mad at me when I tried to make you jealous.

you lied when you dreamed of me that using a green scarf. but i loved that.
and the most thing I miss, is when we're on the phone, 

and no one wants to end the conversation.no one wants to start the word 'goodbye' or 'good evening' we are silent for a long time. breath sounds only vaguely heard. 

and I hate it when the dawn comes and you pretend to forget what happened last night. 

I hate the way you see me from the side that I can't explain. 

I, I just, I'm just confused by how you judge me after all. I'd stay away from you not because I quasi-cool. but because I want you to realize, that we have gone too far without a meaningful relationship. did not have anything to do in this, but I beg you, I'm a girl. I need some clarity on these feelings. 

if you really love me, fight for me! don't easily let go of me to others. keep me in yourself. protect me. make me feel safe. make me feel more precious to you. make me feel like a woman who could hold your emotions.

make me...love you